Sooo...yeah. Life. I'm doing basically nothing the rest of this week and next, and then I go on this week long hike thing in Wyoming (which I kind of don't want to go to, but...whatevs). And then when I get back...

I start packing ._. I move at the end of this month. And days after that, I get my license.

It's kind of weird...it's really surreal and kind of alienating. All of a sudden my life is HAPPENING. First it was Graduation...something I'd thought about my whole life of achieving, but it always seemed like some far away goal...something that would never happen. Not because I wasn't capable, but because..I don't know, since I was a little girl that's what my life was leading up to. That was the point of going to school and doing homework and living my life...was to graduate. So it always seemed like some far off, insurmountable achievement. And then I achieved it and it was really weird. Satisfying, but so bizzare.

And now my LIFE is about to happen...I bitch and moan all the time about not being able to drive or wanting my own place. But once I'm actually in my apartment, by myself, almost completely alone, (my kitten Malick will be there to help me feel more comfortable X3 ) it's going to be really...scary O.o I have never been home alone, like, ever. My grandparents never leave for a long amount of time. My grandpa goes to work and comes home at six, and my grandma occasionally leaves for groceries or doctors appointments or normal things like that. If they're ever gone at the same time, I'm either still asleep, out somewhere else, or even if I'm home they're back before nightfall. And they're always here at night, every night. Even when I was in Oregon with my mom. She might go out drinking with friends and come back the next morning, but she was there every day. I might have been 'home alone' for a day or two. But never for a long amount of time. There's always been someone with me. I guess there still will be, with Malick just a few doors down, but it's still going to be really freaky. I've never spent the night alone in a completely foreign place. Despite all that, I am still REALLY excited.

As for my license...I am SO UNBELIEVABLY excited for that. I'm gonna be scared as hell at first, driving on my own, because I've only had about 8 months of experience as opposed to 3 years if I had gotten it on time (Permit at 15, license at 16 and 17 before being on my own). So, getting my own place AND my own license all at the same time is going to be very earth shaking. I will be completely under my own autonomy. That thought scares me a little.

But excites me more than anything.

I need sleep.

and food.


In that order.